Thursday, November 4, 2010

I need a WAY OUT!!!!!

Get me outta here!

We all have days that we want “out” of. Whether your heart is breaking, your depressed, sad, hurt...frustrated or overwhelmed....believe me, I understand.

I am human. I am real. I cry. I get sad....I want you to know I go through all the things you do and are you are going through!

Last night I definitely washed my heart with tears.  And as I cried, I could feel my heart trying to mend itself....and as more tears fell...and my nose got stuffed up....I felt all of me melt.

Sometimes things in our lives feel so far from perfect. So imperfect, that our hearts long for things to be so right. We may feel like our lives are far away from the “perfect lives” we see on tv or in movies.

I’m here to to say: It’s ok, we are real, our feelings are real. That’s what makes us beautiful. Real is beautiful.

The sad part is “reality tv” is one of the most fake things around. Producers create fake scenes, they set up scenarios and conversations for people to have, “to look real”. Believe me I have friends who have been on reality shows, have created reality show, and I have done make-up on reality shows. The only thing real about those shows is that they are “REAL fake”! ha ha ha

I want you to know that if tears have been running down your face....”tears are rain for your heart that just bring out rainbows and flowers in your soul”...Even though you may have tears at night, you can dance and sing in the morning with a new day, filled with new hope....new smiles....new songs of happiness!

When you have a “Get Me Outta Here Day”:

love yourself- be kind, and tell yourself it’s ok....
rest- sleep restores and refreshes our mind to deal with all the “problems” in our lives
give yourself permission to be imperfect- some of the most amazing people I’ve ever known were ones that had lives that were FAR from perfect
if tears are falling- let them fall, let your mascara get all messed up (ha ha ha)...release all that your heart is full with...
“talk in a can”- talk with can’s....”I can be happy”, “I can get through this”, I can be happy happy no matter how imperfect my life is”. “I can do it!!!!”

I have been in many moments that I thought I couldn’t take much more of...and in all those moments I said, “these things may seem too BIG for me, TOO much to handle, I can’t take anymore!”...
STOP....take a deep breath...say, “I’m ok....I am much stronger than I think. I can go through anything...and just like that broken shattered mirror that shines are sparkled more and more because of all it’s brokeness... we will shine and sparkle more!”

I will be that expert sailor, with all kinds of stories of awful storms I’ve been through...but you know what...just like an old wise sailor....I will be able to go through any storm and steer my little “life” boat though anything because I’ve navigated through some serious “troubled storms in my life!”

So the next time you need a way out.....know that it’s ok...I’ve been there with you....I was just there last night! ha ha ha ha

And as my gramma says: “Any day your above ground is a good day!”

huge love my precious hearts.....i hope you can feel the hug I’m sending to your heart right now!
huge love from a hotel right next to the Toronto airport....

We just got here....I ate some Werther's candies and now I'm sleepy.......
huge love.....kan-adian-dee (get it Canadian...ha ha ha)

56 comments:

ChelseaFoglio said...

love you kandee! cant wait to see you and your mama and your lil cupcake in December! :D you're my inspiration <3

LOVE!
Chelsea

florezitta10 said...

Hi Kandee as always I am very Impressed with the type of human being that you are . You are awesome and beautiful inside and out :) God Bless you and your Family :)

Kathrin said...

You couldn't have posted this at a more perfect time. This is just what I needed to help me get through today! THANK YOU!

DottyMoon said...

HaHa!!! I think the Chilean Miners would agree with "Gramma's" quote

"Any day above ground is a good day!"

ROBYN said...

kandee
you are the most positive person... the karma gods love you !!!! keep it up, your words are uplifting and warms the heart....

take care you

Kristin Leigh said...

You are such a positive and REAL person. Not many can put this out there, or some of the posts you have. For some its all about money and fame, and you're def. a rarity out there in the beauty world. Wish I had you as a mentor!

xx
kristin

tohryuki said...

Seriously, This is the kind of things that make me feel sooo lucky that i found you on youtube.
This gives me the confidence for me to let down my walls and cry ive held so much in and im just ready to lay down some of my burden
Thank you sooo much Kandee
you are by far my biggest inspiration and
most inspiring mentor <3!

Deaette said...

I wont gross you out with the photos or the details but my 21 year old son tried to take his own life on Halloween and this week has been a very long hard week for me. Alcohol is no ones friend specially if they are depressed. I am drowning and I feel I will never reach the surface but I read your blog and keep hope alive for another day truly.

raelinjanis said...

I feel ya! Romans 8:28 keeps popping into my head! If I put good out I'll get it back! I heard a qoute once, "Bad thoughts are like a bird, they can fly over your head, but don't let it land in your hair and make a nest!

Eric Anthony Johnson said...

I always get mad when people call them reality shows too Kandee! I don't like to be negative but I break out in hives when keeping up with the Kardashians is on. It's sad because i bet they always have to be "On" at all times.

My 2 cents.
Eric
Javaboi industries

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SALVAGEANGEL said...

You always know what to say and when to say,thank you!!:)

Nana said...

Finally someone who isn't all superficial. Really appreciate these types of blogs, thanx kandee

Christa said...

It's so hard to keep real today....you almost feel like you need to be fake. I fight it everyday..just want to love me and who I am. Thanks for the reminder that it's ok :)

mle said...

h Kandee, thank so much...you have no idea how much I needed and need to hear your words!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was in sooooo much pain.. and just wanted to fly back to Toronto where my mommy is- ironically (I ached to see you in T.O, but that's another story). I'm here in BC and it's so beautiful here, but I'm so lonely and things are tough... and so hearing your words was like an answer and comfort from above.
Love you Kandee... and you're so funny to :D
Bless you in happy times and sad times and everything in between!!!<3

Sheena said...

I just flew into Toronto too! Can't wait to see you at IMATS on Saturday and the Glaminar on Sunday!

Victoria said...

Not sure if anyone has ever told you this but, you should write a book. A makeup how to with inspirational messages throughout. Everything that comes out of your mouth is amazing and so real. I have always been inspired by Kevyn Aucoin's techniques but you are truely a great person, makeup artist and inspirational speaker. Thank you for being you!!! <3

audyg said...

i read your blog all the time and you seem like such a REAL person! your view on life is awesome i must say. and this post has obviously brightened other peoples day. and has definitely brightened my night!

Christine said...

I have to say I'm going through a horrible situation at my college and I could stand to lose a lot cause of a few dishonest people taking advantage of my kind heart. Your blog has not only inspired me, but helped me to lean more completely on God and know it will all work out for the better. I mean when I grew up abused and unloved by my father thrust in and out of foster care for four years before going to my moms God had and still has a plan for me. Thank you for reminding me of this and being an uplifting light. Wish I had you as a friend in real life.

xhayne said...

Wow!! That's true!! Actually I just finish my crying moment before I read you're blog ('cause of reading manga..haha) and here I am I'm FRESH again. Thank you miss kandee.

Marcy said...

Wow kandee i cannot explain how much this post means to me because i just had a moment where i blew up and felt like crying but i sucked it up and fixed the situation. I love how you show us your are a real person and you also have flaws. thank you kandee so much for every word you have ever written to make us feel soo much better about ourselves.

rheannabowman said...

I know exactly how you feel. I hope you feel better in the morning..Tomorrow is a new day,and you are an amazing woman. You will rock the world! I cant wait to see you in L.A.!!!
Rheanna
pitdanemom

Gabii008 said...

I love that you say what I feel!! I too have had a junky week but life goes and so do you wash away the tears and slap on the smile we all love!!

I watched you You tube video on Breakups the other night and it made me feel at ease so that I could get some sleep!

And as far as Reality TV goes Its a bunch of horse doodi! LOL I would rather watch You tube at least its real people doing real things for the most part!!

LOTZ o LUVIN
Courtney :)

funkymacgirl said...

THESE blogs are another reason why i follow..ur so glamorous,,yet very human like the rest of us we all hurt and wish..well i sometimes wish this HELL will soon be over..but we jus have to shake it off and go on...great post ur not alone..

shannreco said...

thanks kandee!! I have been having alot of those days with the sunshine starting to fade into wintery dreariness. You are such an inspiration! My heart definitely felt the hug you were sending.

Random question: You said on your videos that you drink the hemp-protein shake from nutiva, could you recommend a non-hemp alternative? (allergic to hemp products) THANKS!

Huge love back to you from a few hours Northeast in Ottawa, wish I could come this weekend to TO. You will have to come to ottawa for a Glaminar someday! :D

arlin said...

Wow Kandee that was me last night. Crying my heart out. This came in such a perfect time. Thank you for your words! You are an amazing person!

Jay said...

Many big hugs back at you sweetheart!! I'm sending you some rays of sun as we "speak" :) Best wishes from Norway

Abbie♥ said...

genuine words of inspiration. thank you very much for this, kandee. you really have a big heart!♥

http://abbiespurpleroom.blogspot.com/

Sawka said...

I needed those words and your love! :*

makeup,hauls, and anything under the sun! said...

you truly have the beauty, brains, and a big heart! cheers to you!

Maire said...

Kandee,

You are such a sweetheart. When my life gets crazy, I remember "this too shall pass" and it always has. :D

Video request alert: Can you cover skin care for women of your Mom's age?

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Harvie xXx said...

such beautiful heartful words Kandee! straight form your heart. I always look back & read what you've written when i have those moments of 'shakiness' loll my life has been pretty much troubled up until a few years ago & i think alot of it comes with age & just accepting who you are....love & hugs coming your way xXXXXXXXX you speak from your heart which is what i love about you....never change!

Melissa said...

Hey Kandee! Thanks for theses words of encouragement I really needed them today! See I've been crying for a couple a days now because I'm afraid...I've just be told by my doctor that something is wrong with my uterus...I will maybe need surgery and I'm scared. Please pray for me for everything to be ok, because my greatest wish is to be able to have a baby of my own one day! Lots of love ang hugs xox

Melissa

Vikki said...

such a beautiful inspiring blog post kandee!! Hope you are well <3 xoxoxoxo

www.vikki-gabrielleworld.blogspot.com

Jen said...

All i can say is thank you :) your words warm my heart and helped me stay positive. Please keep writing your an awesome blogger :)

kandee johnson said...

thank you all so much..for sharing your hearts with me too! And @ MELISSA: I will be praying for you!!! huge love my precious ones!!! xoxo your kandee

llllauralei said...

Each day is a new beginning. We learn from and shake off the sorrows of yesterday, but take their lessons with us. We get stronger and move on to bigger and better things. : )
thinking lots of happy thoughts your way!
thank you for all your amazing blogs. : )

andreaks said...

i can't wait to see you tomorrow! i hope your enjoying toronto (besides that fact that its super cold)

thank you for always sharing your encouraging words because sometimes its hard to remember the good times and we get caught up in the bad- so thank you :)

xo

Jerica said...

I love what you do and every time I come to your blog I get a good feeling
THANKS

StopTheMadness said...

I really hate days like that... a lot of times for me there are way more of them than good days.
I just take those times to remember I could be closer to God because only HE is there for me regardless if anyone else is! :)
God bless you Kandee and I hope and pray you see great things coming your way! :)
Also just remember the Kimber/Stormer Song "I'm Okay" ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pe69wwLO4B4

StopTheMadness said...

Here's another beautiful Jem song for you Kandee! ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VX4uNDGmrwY

Lauren said...

Thank you for being such an awesome inspirational person! I hope you find the strength to get through whatever was making you so sad.

I'm sure your words have found many comfort today!

stevielynnrobinson said...

Thanks for posting this Kandee. I just lost my niece in a car accident and we buried her Wendesday. My heart hurts because she was so much a big part of my life. I will miss this beautiful angel who has her wings now. Love you.

ktrnk0rn said...

Ha, I had a day like this a few days ago. Actually, I had a day like this for almost a week in a row, this week. It got so bad on Wednesday that I could not even leave my house; I was in such a state of anxiety that I cried all night and morning to the point that I passed out from exhaustion. The only thing I was able to do was sleep, and it helped me out through the rest of the day. I can really relate to this post right now :c

GlamMom said...

You inspire me like no one else. Thank you so much to be there for all of us. You are a great person and everything in your life is going to be good. Have a great day!!!!

weallgodown said...

I wish there were more people like you out there. The world would be a much brighter place. You make me feel beautiful on a daily basis, and I hope your life continues to shine and sparkle and shift. I am so touched that you are willing to share your life and your advice with your fans. I am honestly inspired by your talent and by your big, beautiful heart. Much love Kandee! Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming swimming. What do we do- we swim, swim! (Finding Nemo reference, hahaha.)

SaraGibbons said...

I need a way out or way through or someone to leave little bread crumbs to guide my way!!!! Not sure but I feel lost!!!! Thanks for the uplifting words.

~S.

Lizz Aubrey said...

Good luck at the IMATS, Kandee. Thanks for always being so uplifting and positive. You're fabulous (with or without makeup)!

xoxo -
LizzAubrey
http://jellyfashionblog.blogspot.com/

Caina Molem said...

Sometimes when I have such days, I listen to Mute Math's song "It's OK". Their first album is totally dedicated to God, and this song is te perfect one to calm you down when things are a bit stressful.

I always watch your videos and read your blog, you're a great person! Thanks for posting your awesome makeup advices and making the world a bit more pretty!!

I wish you success in everything you do!

Sara

Anyah said...

Thank you!

CJsMakeup said...

wow kandee its like you wrote this for me, ive been crying alot latley, n i dont know what to do anymore. thankyou

much love
elizabeth

Sway said...

I'm glad that I came across your page, Kandee.

Things have been really heavy for me lately, reading this really helps :)

Thank you.
sway

TamTam813 said...

I agree with everyone else, I'm so happy I came across your page. You should seriously write a book, I would definitely read it. I'm 30 years old and life definitely has had it's ups and downs but in the end you come out a much stronger person. Thanks for this post :)
Tammy.

chachalady13 said...

This is so down to earth and heart warming! Thank you Kandee for being that voice behind the feelings that everyone feels. You really put "real life" into perspective. We are all one.

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