This is what my "night table", "side table", "nightstand" (whatever you call it) looks like.
Water- check
My favorite TREAT LIP BALM- check.
BUT......INSOMNIA-you, mean, old, not nicey, you- you were not on my checklist!
Last night. I didn't sleep, until way too late.
I tried.
I tried for hours,
and hours to sleep.
I watched tv.
I read.
I listened to a soothing "sleep app" on my phone.
I tried getting more pillows.
And hours just kept on going by.
Poor Ellie and her molars that are coming in, kept waking up, too...poor baby.
Nothing worked.
Now you guys all probably know I will post a blog or edit a video until 2 or 3am...but this was not the case.
I was just in my bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking, trying not to think.
I've read that part of grieving, when you've lost a loved one, is insomnia.
The things you think of, the moments you replay in your head, are really hard to stop sometimes. Even if you haven't lost a loved one, and your brain just keeps thinking when you want to just go dream of living in your dream house and all the other things that are fun to dream of.
Well, I just was in my bed, hoping I would sleep until I last looked at my clock that said 6:30 am....I was so tired but I couldn't sleep.
So I probably got less sleep than someone than takes a nap, last night...
And no, I would not take a sleeping pill...I don't even take Tylenol if something hurts.
I look, well, like someone that didn't sleep....I'd post a picture but it is kinda' frightening..ha ha ha
this even took me way too long to write this blog post...and yes in the middle of the night I thought, "oh I should just go write my blogs"..then I thought, "no, that might really make you awake, even more..."...
I should've just written my blogs....ha ha ha ha
hope you all have an amazing day and that anyone having a hard time sleeping, will gently drift off to "wonderful dreamland"...shortly after your precious head touches the pillow....HUGS, Mr. Sandman, I mean, Kandee
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