Monday, July 16, 2012
When will I return to Youtube?
If you don't know what's happened either, you can click her for more detail. But I have suffered the most painful heartache, at the death of my dad last month.
I have tried 2 times to try to make a youtube video...and I just couldn't.
You can see through my eyes at the heartbreak, the grief, the loss, the sadness.
My heart just can't do it.
They say that sometimes 4-6 weeks after someone you love has died, after the heart-ripping shock and pain, that the hurt of missing them hits you harder than before. That is where I'm at.
I don't know when I will return to youtube. If I will edit the video I filmed before I found out about the tragic loss of my dad. I don't know.
I want to thank you all so much for all the love you've sent to me in your precious comments. You have no idea what it's meant to me. And how I feel God has spoken to my heart through your words and through you sharing the heartache from the loss of your loved ones.
I say all this, to give you a much longer answer than I can tweet or even comment on youtube- that I don't know when I'll return to Youtube. I don't know if it will be soon, or if I'll never post another video again.
I will continue to blog...as my broken heart can't been seen in my eyes like in a video. The tone of sadness can't be heard in my voice. And the expression of grieving can't be seen on my face...
As I write these words....I just pour my heart and hopefully a little bit of happiness (well, maybe not so much in this post..but in the others!) into your day.
Thank you for wanting to see my videos or for even saying you miss them. It makes me glad to know you like them, in the sea of other videos you could watch on Youtube.
I'm not saying BYE to Youtube for good, just "bye for now"...until my heart feels better. Thanks for your love and support. I wish I could see you all in person right now, and really feel the hugs I'm sending you and the hugs you send to me. I don't just say you are like my family to sound fun, I really mean it, you are each precious to my heart and flowers of inspiration to me. And remember, I love you and thank you again, for your love you've given to me and my little heart.
Thank you for reading what I write on my blog...it has offered some love and purpose in my heart when I read your comments that maybe, something I've written, maybe some heartbreak I've been through could offer you the feeling you're not alone. Thank you for your love and kindness.
Huge hugs, from your kandee
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Posted by Kandee Johnson at 2:16 PM